I really don't have much to say. I am still in the same zone as this blog post, but I just want to get it together. There are so many things that I want to do and I am trying, it just gets really hard. Thankfully I have a great support team and things will come together well.
So I have been going through all of my options, and while I won't say right now what the plan is, I can say that at least there is a plan in action. I am ready to get things crackin and start changing my life. Updates coming soon.
Love,
LuvMeNaturally
Showing posts with label Being Fat. Show all posts
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Thursday, September 2, 2010
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
I need a shot of tequila or something
Things are tough and sometimes I feel like giving up. I know all the rules, I know what i need to do, I just can't get it together.
But I did say that I was going to be consistent. So I will make sure to blog as much as I can. I will also get back on YT (which is hard since I lost my camera and all I have is my webcam).
I do go and see the doctor on Friday and hopefully that is the start of me getting my ish together and fast!
Just venting....really not talking about much today.
But I did say that I was going to be consistent. So I will make sure to blog as much as I can. I will also get back on YT (which is hard since I lost my camera and all I have is my webcam).
I do go and see the doctor on Friday and hopefully that is the start of me getting my ish together and fast!
Just venting....really not talking about much today.
Saturday, July 3, 2010
Ti'ed Just Ti'ed
I am so tired....tired of trying to get it right and it goes all wrong. I have tried, and tried, and tried again, but I am still not able to even get a good start on it. Yes you guessed it; I am talking about my weight loss journey.
It seems like I have control over EVERYTHING else in my life. When I set my mind to it I have gotten whatever I wanted. I got the husband I wanted, the job I wanted, the kids actin right, the house, the car....I mean when I want something I GET IT!!! But when it comes to this weight loss thing....It is just not clicking for me.
Everyone tries to say the same thing. Sometimes I wanna say "you can save all your tips about eating right, exercising, blah blah blah. No offense to you but I know all of that already." The truth is I really do. The perfect plan is etched in my mind like a broken etch-a-sketch that no matter how many times you shake it, the darn thing won't erase. The problem is, I can't stick to that plan.
I already hear alla y'all talnbout "Yes you can. If you know what to do just do it." On the other hand, I know many of you have weaknesses, and you know the consequences of falling to those weaknesses, yet you still fall each time. Food is the one thing that I continue to fall to.
Lawd knows I be tryin and tryin......Now I just gotta pray (although I have been doing that too). There is nothing left to do but keep trying. We fall down, but we get up and alla dat other stuff. I just wanna stay up for a little while longer this time.
Yours Ti'ed as all Hell,
LuvMeNaturally
It seems like I have control over EVERYTHING else in my life. When I set my mind to it I have gotten whatever I wanted. I got the husband I wanted, the job I wanted, the kids actin right, the house, the car....I mean when I want something I GET IT!!! But when it comes to this weight loss thing....It is just not clicking for me.
Everyone tries to say the same thing. Sometimes I wanna say "you can save all your tips about eating right, exercising, blah blah blah. No offense to you but I know all of that already." The truth is I really do. The perfect plan is etched in my mind like a broken etch-a-sketch that no matter how many times you shake it, the darn thing won't erase. The problem is, I can't stick to that plan.
I already hear alla y'all talnbout "Yes you can. If you know what to do just do it." On the other hand, I know many of you have weaknesses, and you know the consequences of falling to those weaknesses, yet you still fall each time. Food is the one thing that I continue to fall to.
Lawd knows I be tryin and tryin......Now I just gotta pray (although I have been doing that too). There is nothing left to do but keep trying. We fall down, but we get up and alla dat other stuff. I just wanna stay up for a little while longer this time.
Yours Ti'ed as all Hell,
LuvMeNaturally
Thursday, May 6, 2010
Dear Skinty people........and summa tha rest'a you...
Dear Skinty people,
I decided to write this letter to you because I think that you don't take the big people seriously. I mean yeah our clothes are larger and we get a little winded after walking up a flight of stairs, but hey we are people too. I think that you all need to change your attitude toward us especially when you see us out eating. Please take the time out to read all of these things that you do to make big people feel uncomfortable.
1. Stop looking at us crazy while we are at the gym. I won't even go into this again....just read more about that non-sense here. How do you expect us to lose weight if we don't go to the gym?
2. Stop turning up your nose at us when we order a diet coke with our Big Mac and large fries. At least we are cutting calories somewhere. What is worse is when you skinty people try to come behind us and order your dry salad with water all loud so we can hear you. That ain't goin make me not eat my Big Mac, that will only make me go back and order both of us an apple pie.
3. News people stop filming our fat butts from behind and then putting it on the news talking about "The Obesity Epidemic." Why you gotta do it behind my back? Why couldn't you interview me and ask me to my face what I had for lunch instead of assuming I pigged out at the buffet?
4. Speaking of Buffet.....Stop giggling when you see fat people at the buffet. We all came in there for the same reason...To eat all we can eat. Just because I went back for a third plate after you decided to push half of your second plate away doesn't make you better than me. It makes me more frugal than you are. I am getting more for my money. You coulda just bought a sammich and called it a day.
5. Clothing stores stop selling us clothes that you know good and hell well you are going to talk about us when we wear them. Why would you sell a cat suit in size 5x???? You know as soon as Big Beula come to the party in that cat suitthat looks like some zoo drapes that you goin clown her all night. Just don't do it...DON'T DON'T DON'T!!!!
6. Grocery stores stop putting the candy bars right there at the register knowing I was HONGRY when I got here and I can't wait to eat when I get home. You know all them calories are too much for us. You know what you are doing luring us in....got us standing in those long lines with your slow 80 year old cashier who doesn't know how to ring up the ghetto girl with her link (IL foodstamp) card. Just stop putting me in this type of no win situation please.
7. Doctors stop telling people who are 7 pounds overweight that they are "morbidly obese. (Okay maybe its not 7 but 70 but y'all still be trippin). You look at big people like they woke up one day and said "oh please let me be fat" and poof there it was. Your recommended BMI's are ridiculous. I mean you want us to be 5'10" 122 soaking wet. Quit playin doctors. You know men like a little meat on they women and nobody likes a scrawny man. Stop telling fat people to get to a 12 BMI from a 55 when the numbers make no sense. Where is your bedside manner? Go somewhere and eat a chicken leg and fries or something.
8. Airlines stop making those skinny people seats and then *side eyeing* me when I ask you for a seat belt extension. You know those seat belts don't fit a 2 year old. Got me all cramped up with the arm rests pinchin my legs and my feet going to sleep. I gotta act like I am enjoying the view looking out the window through the whole flight becuase I am crying from the pain. Widen those seats and lengthen the seat belts. Fat people gotta fly too.
Stay tuned for more venting updates.....
LuvMeNaturally
I decided to write this letter to you because I think that you don't take the big people seriously. I mean yeah our clothes are larger and we get a little winded after walking up a flight of stairs, but hey we are people too. I think that you all need to change your attitude toward us especially when you see us out eating. Please take the time out to read all of these things that you do to make big people feel uncomfortable.
1. Stop looking at us crazy while we are at the gym. I won't even go into this again....just read more about that non-sense here. How do you expect us to lose weight if we don't go to the gym?
2. Stop turning up your nose at us when we order a diet coke with our Big Mac and large fries. At least we are cutting calories somewhere. What is worse is when you skinty people try to come behind us and order your dry salad with water all loud so we can hear you. That ain't goin make me not eat my Big Mac, that will only make me go back and order both of us an apple pie.
3. News people stop filming our fat butts from behind and then putting it on the news talking about "The Obesity Epidemic." Why you gotta do it behind my back? Why couldn't you interview me and ask me to my face what I had for lunch instead of assuming I pigged out at the buffet?
4. Speaking of Buffet.....Stop giggling when you see fat people at the buffet. We all came in there for the same reason...To eat all we can eat. Just because I went back for a third plate after you decided to push half of your second plate away doesn't make you better than me. It makes me more frugal than you are. I am getting more for my money. You coulda just bought a sammich and called it a day.
5. Clothing stores stop selling us clothes that you know good and hell well you are going to talk about us when we wear them. Why would you sell a cat suit in size 5x???? You know as soon as Big Beula come to the party in that cat suit
6. Grocery stores stop putting the candy bars right there at the register knowing I was HONGRY when I got here and I can't wait to eat when I get home. You know all them calories are too much for us. You know what you are doing luring us in....got us standing in those long lines with your slow 80 year old cashier who doesn't know how to ring up the ghetto girl with her link (IL foodstamp) card. Just stop putting me in this type of no win situation please.
7. Doctors stop telling people who are 7 pounds overweight that they are "morbidly obese. (Okay maybe its not 7 but 70 but y'all still be trippin). You look at big people like they woke up one day and said "oh please let me be fat" and poof there it was. Your recommended BMI's are ridiculous. I mean you want us to be 5'10" 122 soaking wet. Quit playin doctors. You know men like a little meat on they women and nobody likes a scrawny man. Stop telling fat people to get to a 12 BMI from a 55 when the numbers make no sense. Where is your bedside manner? Go somewhere and eat a chicken leg and fries or something.
8. Airlines stop making those skinny people seats and then *side eyeing* me when I ask you for a seat belt extension. You know those seat belts don't fit a 2 year old. Got me all cramped up with the arm rests pinchin my legs and my feet going to sleep. I gotta act like I am enjoying the view looking out the window through the whole flight becuase I am crying from the pain. Widen those seats and lengthen the seat belts. Fat people gotta fly too.
Stay tuned for more venting updates.....
LuvMeNaturally
Sunday, April 11, 2010
When does your life NOT revolve around losing weight
So sitting with my friend Alicia, who I got to meet yesterday, we were having discussions about weight loss (which is our usual) and then the subject came up: "Why does our whole life have to revolve around losing weight?"
It is so funny that I was just thinking of this because I read in the book "The Gabriel Method" that thin people don't think about what they eat. They just get what they want, eat it, and move on. Fat people on the other hand have to think about what they are eating, how many calories, how many carbs, what they have to do to burn it off, etc.
Here would be an example:
Thin person
1. Goes into a restaurant.
2. Orders an appetizer, entree, dessert and drink.
3. Gets up, pays, leaves and is merry!
Fat person
1. Before they even get to the restaurant they are trying to decide if they should just get the salad and a water (with lemon of course).
2. Gto the restaurant they already feel guilty that they are eating out so they debate parking further away so they can walk and burn some extra calories.
3. Go in the restaurant, want to order half over everything on the menu, start feeling guilty and order a salad with low fat dressing (only to begin the meal).
4. Order most fattening thing on the menu with a diet coke
5. Order water with lemon because "it's cuts the fat and I'm getting my water in"
6. Leave 2 bites get a box and feel good about not eating it all (although it was really about 4 servings)
7. Go to the mall and say that the walking around is buring some of the calories from dinner.
8. Go to get some ice cream and get the low fat frozen yogurt but orders 2 servings.
9. Gets home and takes 45 minutes to find the exercise DVDs that are dusty because they haven't been used.
10. Sits down and says "forget it I will start over tomorrow."
Is your life like this? Okay maybe it's not exactly like this but you know exactly what I mean. Why does EVERYTHING we do have to revolve around losing weight. I sat with my girl last night and as I drank my glass of water I said "See I am getting in my water today!" This is how we think about everything that goes on around us. When does this stage end? Does it ever?
I just want to get to the point in my life where I am like the thin person who sits down and orders whatever they want without a second thought. It makes no sense that even when I go to the bathroom I have to think about whether or not I am "regular" and how that is going to affect what the numbers on the scale say tomorrow.
We need a reality show called "When losing weight becomes an obsession."
Love ya,
LuvMeNaturally
It is so funny that I was just thinking of this because I read in the book "The Gabriel Method" that thin people don't think about what they eat. They just get what they want, eat it, and move on. Fat people on the other hand have to think about what they are eating, how many calories, how many carbs, what they have to do to burn it off, etc.
Here would be an example:
Thin person
1. Goes into a restaurant.
2. Orders an appetizer, entree, dessert and drink.
3. Gets up, pays, leaves and is merry!
Fat person
1. Before they even get to the restaurant they are trying to decide if they should just get the salad and a water (with lemon of course).
2. Gto the restaurant they already feel guilty that they are eating out so they debate parking further away so they can walk and burn some extra calories.
3. Go in the restaurant, want to order half over everything on the menu, start feeling guilty and order a salad with low fat dressing (only to begin the meal).
4. Order most fattening thing on the menu with a diet coke
5. Order water with lemon because "it's cuts the fat and I'm getting my water in"
6. Leave 2 bites get a box and feel good about not eating it all (although it was really about 4 servings)
7. Go to the mall and say that the walking around is buring some of the calories from dinner.
8. Go to get some ice cream and get the low fat frozen yogurt but orders 2 servings.
9. Gets home and takes 45 minutes to find the exercise DVDs that are dusty because they haven't been used.
10. Sits down and says "forget it I will start over tomorrow."
Is your life like this? Okay maybe it's not exactly like this but you know exactly what I mean. Why does EVERYTHING we do have to revolve around losing weight. I sat with my girl last night and as I drank my glass of water I said "See I am getting in my water today!" This is how we think about everything that goes on around us. When does this stage end? Does it ever?
I just want to get to the point in my life where I am like the thin person who sits down and orders whatever they want without a second thought. It makes no sense that even when I go to the bathroom I have to think about whether or not I am "regular" and how that is going to affect what the numbers on the scale say tomorrow.
We need a reality show called "When losing weight becomes an obsession."
Love ya,
LuvMeNaturally
Thursday, April 8, 2010
Food Addiction - Is there a rehab for that?
So everyone else gets to be addicted to stuff that is illegal. You got crack heads, meth heads, weed heads, etc. What do I get to be addicted to???? Food that's what, and it's everywhere you turn.
How crazy is it that the McDouble at McDonald's is $1, along with a small fry and sweet tea? For $3 and some tax I can have a full and unhealthy meal, but crack heads gotta scrounge up $10 to get some crack and they get rehab.
Hello my name is Cris and I am addicted to food, junk (especially dark chocolate), and everything else that is making me gain weight......What??? No group of people to say "Hiiii Cris" and then me vent about how hard it was to get through my day yesterday without a slice of pizza?
Okay maybe there are rehabs out there for people like me. I mean it is one thing to be addicted to illegal drugs, or expensive habits like drinking and smoking cigarettes. But what about people who are addicted to something that is NECESSARY for life.....people who are addicted to food. So what do we do? Its not like I will get arrested or lose my job for having a slice of cheesecake. I know it sounds bad, but sometimes I would rather have some sort of other addiction. Why does it have to be to food? WHY WHY WHY?????
I am working through my addiction and learning to manage it. Today has been a great day so far. As much as I wanted to devour these chocolate almonds I am pushing them to the side and having a healthy snack. I have to do something to get my life back in order. Healthy is the way that things need to be.
****Side note**** If you have any of the addictions I mentioned or any other addiction I am not trying to talk down on you in any way. I say get help when you can because I know what it feels like to have an adiction that can have a very negative affect on your life. Just like crack can kill, so can junk food. Just like cigarettes can give you lung cancer eating the wrong foods can give you colon, skin, and a number of other cancers. GET HELP!!!!****
LuvMeNaturally
How crazy is it that the McDouble at McDonald's is $1, along with a small fry and sweet tea? For $3 and some tax I can have a full and unhealthy meal, but crack heads gotta scrounge up $10 to get some crack and they get rehab.
Hello my name is Cris and I am addicted to food, junk (especially dark chocolate), and everything else that is making me gain weight......What??? No group of people to say "Hiiii Cris" and then me vent about how hard it was to get through my day yesterday without a slice of pizza?
Okay maybe there are rehabs out there for people like me. I mean it is one thing to be addicted to illegal drugs, or expensive habits like drinking and smoking cigarettes. But what about people who are addicted to something that is NECESSARY for life.....people who are addicted to food. So what do we do? Its not like I will get arrested or lose my job for having a slice of cheesecake. I know it sounds bad, but sometimes I would rather have some sort of other addiction. Why does it have to be to food? WHY WHY WHY?????
I am working through my addiction and learning to manage it. Today has been a great day so far. As much as I wanted to devour these chocolate almonds I am pushing them to the side and having a healthy snack. I have to do something to get my life back in order. Healthy is the way that things need to be.
****Side note**** If you have any of the addictions I mentioned or any other addiction I am not trying to talk down on you in any way. I say get help when you can because I know what it feels like to have an adiction that can have a very negative affect on your life. Just like crack can kill, so can junk food. Just like cigarettes can give you lung cancer eating the wrong foods can give you colon, skin, and a number of other cancers. GET HELP!!!!****
LuvMeNaturally
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Oh like you could live without some greens and Co'n bread O_o
Well day 3 and I was doing great. I mean really great. Not that I won't continue to be awesome after today.....anyway let me explain my madness.
So I leave for along and boring meeting at work only to come back to my IM window being open. At first I was pissed thinking to myself "Do these people not see that I am in a meeting?" Then I realized that it was one of my buddies at work (there are very few)so instead of me being completely disgusted that someone would have the audacity to disturb my computer's idle time, I read the IM.
It said this:
Buddy at work: I am going to pick up some "name and website of tastiest soul food restaurant on this side of town" what do y'all want?
Other buddy at work (remember there are only like 3): Wow that menu looks so good. Get me some fried chicken, maccaroni and cheese, greens, and some banana pudding.
Buddy at work: Cool I will call and put in the order in a few.
Message has sat idle for over 30 minutes since I was in a meeting
Me: awww man why y'all gotta order "name of tastiest soul food restaurant on this side of town" now??? Y'all know I am on a strict meal plan.........
Well I wouldn't be typing this if I didn't have some. It was good, but now I gotta get on track. I promise this is the last time (ok maybe not the last but I am focused on not being a fat @$$ anymore so it will be a very VERY limited amount of times).
It was good while it lasted...You know.... kinda like a dude/girl that you meet who is really good in bed but you know you have no future with......don't act like y'all don't know what I mean. O__o Oh well, now I gotta move on.
LuvMeNaturally
So I leave for a
It said this:
Buddy at work: I am going to pick up some "name and website of tastiest soul food restaurant on this side of town" what do y'all want?
Other buddy at work (remember there are only like 3): Wow that menu looks so good. Get me some fried chicken, maccaroni and cheese, greens, and some banana pudding.
Buddy at work: Cool I will call and put in the order in a few.
Message has sat idle for over 30 minutes since I was in a meeting
Me: awww man why y'all gotta order "name of tastiest soul food restaurant on this side of town" now??? Y'all know I am on a strict meal plan.........
Well I wouldn't be typing this if I didn't have some. It was good, but now I gotta get on track. I promise this is the last time (ok maybe not the last but I am focused on not being a fat @$$ anymore so it will be a very VERY limited amount of times).
It was good while it lasted...You know.... kinda like a dude/girl that you meet who is really good in bed but you know you have no future with......don't act like y'all don't know what I mean. O__o Oh well, now I gotta move on.
LuvMeNaturally
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Late Night Confessions of a fat girl
So I didn't get a chance to post this last night but man oh man am I just a little disappointed.
So I made these turkey cutlets yesterday to have as a part of my lean and green meal. Those dog'gone things were soooooo good. I mean I seasoned the hell outta them joka's!!! Anyway with my late nights that i stay up of course I started getting hungry...so what did I do? Well since you asked...I decided to have another turkey chop after midnight :O
Technically it was a new day so I didn't really do anything wrong O_o Okay I am a liar. I know that I shouldn't be eating that late especially on my meal plan and especially MEAT.
I don't know what it is, I just get hungrier later in the evening. Like right now I am not really hungry at all but I know I have to eat to stay on track with my meal plan. I may need to adjust my schedule again. I don't want to mess this whole journey up because I can't control my late night hunger. Maybe I will hold off from eating breakfast until about 10. *shrugs* I don't know but I gotta do something.
So I made these turkey cutlets yesterday to have as a part of my lean and green meal. Those dog'gone things were soooooo good. I mean I seasoned the hell outta them joka's!!! Anyway with my late nights that i stay up of course I started getting hungry...so what did I do? Well since you asked...I decided to have another turkey chop after midnight :O
Technically it was a new day so I didn't really do anything wrong O_o Okay I am a liar. I know that I shouldn't be eating that late especially on my meal plan and especially MEAT.
I don't know what it is, I just get hungrier later in the evening. Like right now I am not really hungry at all but I know I have to eat to stay on track with my meal plan. I may need to adjust my schedule again. I don't want to mess this whole journey up because I can't control my late night hunger. Maybe I will hold off from eating breakfast until about 10. *shrugs* I don't know but I gotta do something.
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